Ok so yesterday I was reallypissed off. I felt like life was too much trouble anymore. I tried so hard writing The Sunshine Murders and felt like it was all pointless. But then I thought what if I never did it at all? That woulda sucked even more. Im just not really selling any books or Audible versions because I dont know how to market at all. So today I went to the park with my son and the better half. We played football and walked three times around the park thingy trail Then I lay down and just looked up into space and realized that yes Im a very small little being on such a huge planet. So as I lay there I was staring at a tree that was above me and way way up I could see a couple hawks flying over head and I felt like that was all life really is, It isnt cars, or stuff or anything,,,its just finding a peace you can live with. Thats hard in this world and I know it. But the little things like feeling the cold from the 40 something breeze is invigorating. Kinda wakes you up. So, I may have written a book that flopped but Im still here and doing what I can.